While I was living aimlessly like that, I went to an exhibit I was invited to, and ended up finding a doll.
It was a doll made so delicately, it seemed to be at the limits of a man's skills. It was like a frozen human, yet at the same time it was clear that it was simply a human-shaped mannequin which would never move.
But it was just too beautiful...
A human about to start moving any second now. But a doll which does not have any life to begin with. A place where only things with life can reach, yet a place where no human can reach...
I fell in love with that ambivalence.